Never Without You

Valerie's random thoughts about Dark Shadows, especially my OTP, Barnabas and Julia. Hopeless fangurl of the fabulous Grayson Hall and Jonathan Frid.

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Barnabas, this medicine is poison. Deadly poison!”


Barnabas is pooped and wants to go to bed (*or to chair in the drawing Julia, however, has gotten her second wind and done a bit of science. She’s analyzed the medicine (*Wow that was quick) and finds that it contains poison. Barnabas seems genuinely shocked (*Really, Barnabas? You knew it was supposed to kill Joe). He denies wanting Joe dead. He saved his life and brought him to Julia. And he didn’t poison the medicine. It must have been the intruder Julia heard earlier when he was out. Julia doesn’t know what’s going on. She only knows that someone almost succeeded in killing Joe Haskell. Barnabas looks guilty and heads off to catch some zzzzs. Of course, Joe has woken up just in time to hear the tail end of the squabble.

He tried to kill me! He wants to kill me. To get rid of me. Because of her. He wants to murder me!”

"Will you tell Maggie what you are, what you’ve become?"

"No! No, Not Maggie! She must never know. No, not Maggie. No, not Maggie…not Maggie."

Barnabas promises Joe that no harm will come to him…this night. Joe wakes up still moaning about Angelique not wanting him. But he’s through with suicide. He’s going to pay Angelique back, and pay Barnabas back, too, if he’s the one she wants. He’ll tell everyone about Angelique and everything she’s done to him, to Barnabas, to everyone. Barnabas only gets him to quiet down by bringing up Maggie’s name. Joe doesn’t want Maggie to ever know. He drifts off to sleep again, with Maggie’s name on his lips.

"Well, I…I don’t know. I…I must have thought the morning had come."

"But how could you think that? It’s still dark out."

"Yes.Yes, it is isn’t it? Dark, very dark"

"Barnabas, you’re very strange."

Caught in the act. Julia walks in on Barnabas about to give Joe his “medicine.” Since it had already been established that Joe has had his proper dosage for the night, Barnabas can only hem and haw about being so overtired that he thought it was morning. But not too tired to continue the bedside vigil. Julia calls him very strange (*lol) and exits. But she takes the bottle of medicine with her, flashing him a very suspicious look.

"I won’t fall asleep until sunrise. You have my promise."

"All right. I’ll take this with me, in case you get confused again."

"I know why Angelique said Joe must be given this medicine. Because it will kill him! Why must I do this? I must do it because it is her command!"

*It’s interesting to see cured Barnabas on such a guilt trip at the thought of taking a life. For Vampire Barnabas such things—rather they were thoughts or deeds—had been business as usual.

"Julia, you’re awake! I thought you’d be sleeping."

"I woke up and found you were gone. Where have you been?"

Barnabas comes home with a really lame story about investigating the woods because the dogs were howling. Julia doesn’t understand why he didn’t wake her so Joe wouldn’t be left alone or why Barnabas says he was gone only a few minutes when it’s been at least an hour (*Time flies when you’re a vampire’s beverage of choice, eh, Barnabas?). Luckily for Barnabas, she’s too tired to cross exam him. She tells him of the noise she heard, but he says she’s just nervous and imagining things. Who would  break into the Old House? Barnabas insists on going upstairs to check on Joe, alone, and equally insistent that Julia rest while he’s gone. Julia clearly thinks an over-solicitous Barnabas is a very weird Barnabas.

"Because I want you to sit in there and get some rest. You need rest! You need it as much as I do."

"Well, you could be sick and not know it. Please let me call a doctor."

"Mrs Johnson, no please. Julia Hoffman is a doctor and if there’s anything wrong with me, she can take care of me. But I’m sure there’s nothing wrong…Forgive me, but I have to go now. I have to go to the Old House. Dr. Hoffman is there."

Harry takes Barnabas to Collinwood. Mrs. Johnson fusses. Barnabas says he fainted, but refuses any aid. Julia is at the Old House (*In the wee hours again…lol) and she can take care of him. Harry and Mrs. Johnson watch him go (*Obviously thinking, OK. That was weird).

"Joe Haskell will die and you will be responsible."


"Yes, I want you to be the guilty one. I want you to kill Joe Haskell and live with the guilt through eternity."

Angelique is not a happy vampire. Barnabas disobeyed her when he did not let Joe die of his wound. She orders him to kill Joe and feel guilty forever. Barnabas is shocked by this (“Why? We don’t know). Angelique smirks.  Barnabas declares Angelique will never get him to kill Joe. This sounds like a challenge to Angelique and she proves she’s in charge by biting him again. He screams (*again); Julia hears bumps in the night, which is just Harry the noisy crook slipping out of the Old House. He soon stumbles upon Barnabas collapsed in the woods.

"This must be the medicine. Why does Nicholas want him to die? I don’t understand."

While Julia sleeps, Barnabas sneaks out and Harry sneaks in. He puts the poison in Joe’s medicine, still wondering why. Julia wakes up and calls to Barnabas. Harry hides and Julia enters the room, clearly wondering why Barnabas has left Joe alone.


She’s out there! She wants me to come to her. I must resist her! I must!”

The dogs are howling. Joe tosses and turns. Barnabas is edgy, telling himself he must resist Angelique (*You should have said that in Martinique…lol); At Collinwood, it’s nearly 2:30 a.m. Harry (*Who has evidently been told that Barnabas is a raging insomniac) wonders why he feels compelled to do anything Nicholas Blair says. Mrs. Johnson (*With her hair down) wants to know what Harry’s up to now. Harry has no time to shoot the breeze and bids his mother goodnight; Barnabas offers Joe the consolation that Angelique isn’t calling him. Joe’s resentful at being replaced and declares that he is going to her anyway. Luckily, he’s too weak to put up much of a fight. Barnabas says he feels sorry for Joe. However, he decides that for himself resistance is futile.

I’ve got to resist her! I can’t leave this room! I can’t leave Joe! Resist her! Yes! Yes! But I can’t! I can’t! I must got to her! I must go to her!”

Julia, you look exhausted. Why don’t you get some rest for a while?”

Julia says Joe is young and strong and likely to recover. Since Barnabas has convinced her that her theory about Cassandra was ridiculous, she wonders who the vampire could be. There haven’t been any known attacks in so long (*Since Julia herself was meeting Tom Jennings in the woods) that she thought they were all safe. New vampire slave Barnabas plays dumb, but looks guilty. Suddenly solicitous, he convinces Julia to rest. She warns Barnabas that if Joe is summoned, he must do everything he can to stop Joe from answering the vampire’s call.

"Barnabas you mustn’t leave him. You know what will happen if you leave him."

"I know better than anyone."

"Maggie, will you marry me?"

"Marry you?"

Nicholas proposes to Maggie. He’ll be leaving Collinsport soon and want to take her with him. Maggie politely turns him down. She’s too concerned about Joe. He tried to kill himself. Nicholas seems genuinely shocked by the news (*Since he’s always out of the loop about happenings in Angelique’s world) and by Maggie’s intention to find out the identity of the girl who caused such aberrant behavior in her former fiance. As long as Joe is “troubled”, Maggie couldn’t go anywhere; Eve returns from a “walk” and Adam happily tells her they are leaving town soon. Eve is underwhelmed. Adam is confused. He is angry when Nicholas says they must postpone their plans. Maggie must agree to come “willingly.”; Nicholas gives reluctant slave boy Harry Johnson (*he’s a bad boy, not a murderer) a vial of poison. and instructs him to sneak into the Old House and pour the poison into Joe’s medicine.

And by tomorrow morning, Joe Haskell will be dead.”

When we leave, it will not be the three of us. It will be the four of us…No, not Angelique…Maggie Evans.”“

"Maggie? Why? Nicholas, are you in love with Maggie Evans?"

"I want her with me. Let’s just say that."

Eve ignores Adam and leaves Blair House. Adam pesters Nicholas to keep his promise and take them away from Collinsport. He no longer cares about having plastic surgery. He just wants Eve to be happy (*and improve her mood?). An impatient Nicholas finally agrees. But he will be taking Maggie Evans with them when they go. Adam is just thrilled he’s not bringing Angelique. Jeff is having a smoke in his room when Eve drops by. The go through a couple more rounds of “I love you and we’re destiny!” and “I’ve never laid eyes on you before!.” Jeff calls her crazy. Eve accuses him of being afraid to remember he’s Peter Bradford. Does he want her to pay a call on the girl she saw him with at Collinwood? Jeff warns her to stay away from Vicki. They are going to be married soon. He’s Jeff Clark and it’s not possible to come back from the dead (*lol). Eve refuses to give up on making Jeff remember that he’s lived before. He gets hysterical and kicks her out. She goes, but she tells him to forget about marrying anyone else.

"Get out! Get out of here!"

I’ll find a way to make you remember. All it will take is a little time. And that marriage you were talking about? I wouldn’t count on it ever taking place!”

"I was right! Jeff Clark really is Peter Bradford! And I love him! I love him!"

"You’re forgetting about Adam!"

"I don’t care about Adam! I belong to Peter Bradford. I’m going to be with him and you can’t stop me!"

Eve vows to be with PB/J. She and Nicholas exchange terminal stares, but she doesn’t give a hoot about Adam. She loved Peter enough to kill for him. Nicholas knows everything about her past. Danielle Roget and her lover Phillipe Cordier emigrated together from France. She stabbed him in the back when she fell in love with Peter Bradford. “You weren’t a very nice person,” says an admiring Nicholas. Eve now understands her strong urge to kill Adam. Nicholas points out that he only said she had to pretend to love Adam. For someone as fundamentally evil as Eve, it should be easy. She must forget Peter…or else. But Eve accuses Nicholas of being all talk and no action and walks out. Surprisingly, Nicholas remains silent.

I don’t believe your threats, Nicholas. If you were going to punish me, you would have done it before now.”

*I pretty much adore “Papa” Nicholas being so ineffectual with rebellious Eve. Sort of takes the heat off Barnabas and Julia as bad monster parents.

"If it is true, then they are one in the same.  And there are forces at work here that I don’t know about."

Nicholas is fascinated that Eve has met someone she knew as Danielle Rogert. And mystified that that someone is Jeff Clark aka Peter Bradford (*Yes, so are we, Nicholas). He puts Eve under the warlock version of hypnosis to remember more. Eve stares in the flame of a candle and we see her as Danielle (*but with her own face) in 18th Century clothing in a room with Peter/Jeff (*PB&J?). She has just confessed to murdering her old boyfriend Phillipe Cordier and Peter is not a happy camper. He calls her “an animal” who takes killing lightly. She says that blood no longer shocks her after living through four years of the French Revolution. She killed Phillipe because he threatened their love (*Hey, what happened to Danielle being the most eeeeevvviiilll woman ever and massacring her lovers and family? I smell a re-write…lol). Peter doesn’t care. He shakes his fist at her and tells her to get out of Collinsport or he’s turning her in to the authorities. Eve comes out of the hypnosis thrilled with the memory (*Like most ladies in Collinsport, threats and hatred are an aphrodisiac to Eve). She loves Peter Bradford!

"Maybe I do feel something for you, and that’s the only reason I haven’t turned you in and let them hang you. But I’m going to the authorities, do you understand? And I’m going to tell them everything, tell them everything about you. But I’m going to give you more of a chance than you gave Phillipe. You’ve got until tomorrow morning, just tomorrow morning to get out of Collinsport. Now get out of my life! I never want to see you again! Never!"

Oh, poor Adam! The minute something doesn’t go his way, he comes running to show his broken heart to Papa Nicholas!”

Papa Nicholas doesn’t appreciate Eve’s sarcasam about why she was out past her curfrew ran out of Collinwood. He slaps her. She says she hates him. Nicholas doesn’t care.She must follow his orders. Eve admits she fought with Adam. She can’t help it. She doesn’t like him. He’s like a spoiled child. Too bad, so sad. She must like Adam and not risk exposure. She is not “indispensable.” Eve disagrees. She is vital to his plan, whatever it is. She agrees to tell him where she was if he will answer a question. Where was she before the experiment? Eve knows she’s lived before because she met someone tonight that she knew in another time, another place. She must know who she was!

"I saw him tonight. I recognized him. I knew his name! I knew him as someone who loved me before. Only I didn’t know when or where or why. Nicholas, I want you to tell me!"