Never Without You

Valerie's random thoughts about Dark Shadows, especially my OTP, Barnabas and Julia. Hopeless fangurl of the fabulous Grayson Hall and Jonathan Frid.

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"I’ve got to find a way of escaping her. But how?…I know what’s happening. I know!"

"Barnabas, I know what you were thinking. But you’ll never find a way of escaping me. Never!"

No rest for the wicked. The dogs are howling and Barnabas knows what that means. Angelique soon appears. Nicholas will never know she disobeyed him because Barnabas can’t tell him. She corners him and bites him again. Not liking the other side of the vampire/victim equation, Barnabas screams his head off.

Haven’t you done enough to me tonight? Can’t you leave me alone?”

"I’ll never leave you alone. Until you’re mine. Completely mine."

"No. Please! No! No!"

"You look rather strange."

"Julia, I thought this nightmare would be over tonight but it isn’t and I don’t know what to do next. So naturally I’m afraid and worried….Please, Julia. I’m exhausted. Can’t we talk to tomorrow?""

Barnabas returns to the Old House and lies like a rug (*while clutching his coat collar…lol). The Plan failed because Eve wasn’t at Blair House. No sign of Adam either. This sounds a bit far-fetched to Julia and Stokes (*because where could two monsters have gone? Out on the town?), but Barnabas fields their questions and Julia’s concern for his physical well being. He’s exhausted from all the breaking and entering and depressed that the horror will continue (*in more ways than one). Julia knows that something is not right, but the vampire specialist/ex-vampire victim can’t quite put her finger on it. She allows Professor Stokes to drive her back to Collinwood

"I’m worried. The way he looked. The way he was behaving. Something about him bothers me."

"Julia, you’ve done enough worrying for one night"

You underestimated Nicholas. Why, the moment he got your invitation he knew what you had in mind..He knew that you wanted to get inside this house. So he decided to let you.”

"And so I walked into a trap."

"Yes. I’m really rather surprised at you, Barnabas. I thought you had more intelligence."

Angelique continues to gloat. Barnabas was naive to think Nicholas didn’t know what he was up to in regard to Eve (*Isn’t that exactly what Julia warned you about, Barnabas….hmmm?)  And, oh, yes. He is hers now and will come whenever she calls.She orders him to put an end to any suspicions Julia and Stokes may have but refuses to help him devise a cover story. (*Who do you think she is, Barnabas? Julia? lol)  He begs to be allowed to go home. Angelique makes him repeat his plea, relishing the moment, but lets him go after he says “Please.”  (*In other words, Angelique is having a great night. Barnabas….not so much). Nicholas comes home and Angelique reports success: Barnabas is under their power. Nicholas tells her that he will determine when she can see Barnabas. Angelique assures Nicholas that she will obey him. Nicholas suspects that she is agreeing too easily and says that this is her only warning.

"You can see Barnabas occasionally, but only occasionally. I mean .I shall determine when you see him. You will not see him unless I say you can. Do you understand?"

"Please give my thanks to Mr. Collins. Tell him that I had a most interesting evening."

Despite Julia and Stokes combined efforts to keep him at the Old House, Nicholas decides it’s past his bedtime and leaves. Julia frets that Adam must have found Barnabas and killed him, or Nicholas will when he catches him in the house. Stokes points out that Barnabas has had adequate time to kill Eve and be out of Blair House by now. At any rate, he knew the risks and made his choice willingly. This is small comfort to Julia who senses that Barnabas is in deep trouble (*again).

"If he isn’t dead, then something else must have happened to him. Something terrible!"

"Yes, it’s Angelique. Your bride. The only bride you’ll ever have."

"I’ll never be rid of you will I?"


"As long as I live, you will exist to torment me."

"That’s right. You will never escape me."

"I thought I finally had. I should have known better."

Barnabas is weak and disoriented. Angelique is victorious. He is hers and nobody else will ever have him. He hates her. It doesn’t matter. She hates him more. And having him in her control almost makes being a vampire worthwhile. Barnabas tries to make a break for it, but Angelique is having none of that. And, no. She doesn’t care that people are waiting for him and will be suspicious if he doesn’t return. He isn’t gong anywhere until she says so.

What are you planning to do?”

"Don’t you know?"

"You are going to make me revert to what I was!"

*Angelique continues to cast a reflection in a mirror, in spite of being a vampire.

Get away from me!”

"Aren’t you curious to know why I’m alive? How Nicholas allowed me to live? This is what I am. This is what Nicholas has made me."

Angelique gloats that Barnabas is not rid of her. She gloats that he is frightened. She has been waiting for this moment for a long time. She reveals that Nicholas let her live again, more or less. She bares her fangs and bites Barnabas. He screams bloody murder.

Now the background of the Collins shipping interests is in many ways even more fascinating than the family.history.”

Barnabas survives the drive to Blair House and heads upstairs. At the Old House, Stokes prattles on and on. A bored Nicholas tries to excuse himself in order to pay Roger his respects. Julia improvises, stating that Roger went to bed as she was leaving. Stokes continues his dissertation. At Nicholas’ house, Barnabas readies the hypodermic and enters Eve’s room. He moves to stab the body in her bed, but finds he has fallen for the old pillows under the blanket trick once again. He is greeted by Angelique, who bares her fangs.


Is the Professor going on about his unfortunate ancestor?”

"Well, actually he’s told me more about your ancestors."

"Well, I’m sure he’s the one to tell you. He probably knows more about my family than I do."

Professor Stokes gives a history lesson: Joshua Collins built the Old House for Naomi in 1757, but after Collinwood was built in 1796, the house remained unoccupied until the present Barnabas Collins emigrated from England. He knows all this because his ancestor, Ben Stokes, was a servant indentured to the Collins family (*But who knew Ben was such a history buff?). There’s no sign of food at this dinner party, but Barnabas serves up some booze and even takes a rare drink himself (*Naomi’s son is apparently a teetotaler). Barnabas and Stokes wonder where the usually prompt Julia could be. Soon she arrives with the fake summons from Liz. Barnabas pretends to be reluctant to leave his guests, but Nicholas plays along and urges Barnabas to fulfill his family duty. Barnabas heads out with the killing dose provided by Julia, along with a plea to be careful (*which is rather like telling rain to be dry…lol).

"My, dear Barnabas, aside from whatever supernatural powers he may possess, the man is an insufferable egotist. I don’t think he believes that ordinary people like us would dare to plot against him."

Professor Stokes arrives at the Old House, convinced that Nicholas doesn’t suspect a thing. The Three Musketeers study a detailed sketch of Blair House (*Did Stokes draw this in the car?…lol) which includes three bedrooms. The cologne scented room Stokes surmises to be Eve’s. Julia worries that Adam may be with Eve when Barnabas arrives, but Stokes believes Eve did not respond to Adam and will be alone  (*doesn’t everyone sleep alone on Dark Shadows?). The Plan is for Julia to arrive late to the dinner party, saying she was detained by an ill Mrs. Stoddard, who wants to see Barnabas. Barnabas will excuse himself from the party and make his escape to Blair House in Stokes car (*running down a few pedestrians along the way). Julia continues to fret about the danger. Barnabas tells Stokes of Julia’s nightmare which “she chooses to interpret as a premonition”. While agreeing that it is a dangerous situation, Stokes believes that Nicholas is completely in the dark and votes with Team Barnabas.  But Julia’s intuition is sound. Nicholas is watching the strategy session on his Magic Mirror TV.

There is no question that we are all in danger, especially Barnabas. But I think you are over-reacting. If I thought for a moment that Nicholas suspected anything, I’d say that it was insanity to go ahead with all this. But he doesn’t  suspect anything.”

*This is the first reference on the show to Barnabas driving a car. Who taught him and how a man born in the 18th Century obtained the necessary paperwork to get a drivers license has been left to fanfiction.

"Barnabas Collins has certain eccentricities…The most annoying of which is his stubborn refusal to surrender to any of the technological advances of the last hundred years… He couldn’t possibly call you because he doesn’t have a telephone. If you dine with him, you’ll dine by candlelight because he has no electricity." 

Professor Stokes sips sherry at Blair House. He extends an invitation to Nicholas-on behalf of Barnabas—to a small dinner party that evening at the Old House. Nicholas expresses surprise. He didn’t think Barnabas liked him. Stokes claims he once got a similar chilly reception from Barnabas, but now they are good friends. Nicholas wonders why Barnabas didn’t simply phone to invite him himself? This leads to a discussion of Barn’s eccentricities—he has no phone, no electricity and yet he is rather “touchy” on the subject of the past. Nicholas declares this to be fascinating. After a few well placed compliments, Stokes maneuvers a tour of Blair House and tells Nicholas to be at the Old House at 10 o’clock

"Dining late is one of Barnabas Collins’ minor eccentricities."

Julia, I’m surprised at you. I’m hardly a psychologist but obviously your dream was perfectly obvious. You were convinced that we shouldn’t go through with this last night. I argued with you and so you simply dreamed something to support what you feared. It’s as simple as that.”

Julia tells Barnabas that he will die if he goes to Nicholas Blair’s house. She saw it all in a dream. Amused, Barnabas offers a psychological explanation. They disagreed on the plan to kill Eve, so Julia’s subconscious kicked in with proof to support her argument (*Thank you, “Dr” Collins. Have you been reading Julia’s medical books again?). At any rate, it’s too late to change the plan, even if he wanted to. It’s already in motion, so they must finish what they’ve started..

"Barnabas, you can’t dismiss it as easily as that. Not when your life is in danger."

"My life will not be in danger, Julia. We’ve thought this out very, very carefully."


I’m almost at episode 300 where Burke Devlin proposes to Victoria Winters.
I have my own thoughts on it, but how did you all feel about the proposal?
Did you feel that Burke really loved her, or did it seem like an ulterior motive was in play?

—I don’t think Burke had any ulterior motive in proposing to Vicki. His vendetta against the Collins family was over by this point. I think he did genuinely love her. Of Vicki’s two official boyfriends, I’ve always liked Burke the best. Peter Bradford/Jeff Clark—whom I’ve dubbed “Shouty McYellerson”—makes my ears bleed.


I’m almost at episode 300 where Burke Devlin proposes to Victoria Winters.

I have my own thoughts on it, but how did you all feel about the proposal?

Did you feel that Burke really loved her, or did it seem like an ulterior motive was in play?

—I don’t think Burke had any ulterior motive in proposing to Vicki. His vendetta against the Collins family was over by this point. I think he did genuinely love her. Of Vicki’s two official boyfriends, I’ve always liked Burke the best. Peter Bradford/Jeff Clark—whom I’ve dubbed “Shouty McYellerson”—makes my ears bleed.

Beautiful collage of Grayson Hall that’s been posted around the Facebook groups.

Pictures from the 2014 Dark Shadows Festival, the weekend of June 28th, Tarrytown, NY. Snagged from various Facebook groups

"Julia! Julia! Come to me! I need you! Julia! Please help me! Help me! Come to me! The woods, Julia! Please, come to me! The woods, Julia! Hurry! Hurry! You were right, Julia! Mistake! I should never have gone to Nicholas’ house!"

Julia goes to bed. At 3 a.m.she is in the midst of a weird dream. Barnabas is in peril. He beckons her to the woods where he laments going to Blair House. Then he falls down dead. Julia wakes up screaming his name.

Barnabas! Barnabas!”

*Barnabas makes a really fine damsel in distress….lol. However, Julia’s first clue that this was a dream should have been Barnabas using the words “You were right” and “mistake”.